If I see you next to never - how can we say forever

Sometimes I like playing with a thought, a dream, of you and me together. It would never go further than that. Because that is what we are meant to be, a dream, forever. It´s comforting, it helps me get over the bad times. Why. I have kept asking myself that question over and over again. Maybe you understand me better than anyone else ever will. You bring out the best and the worst in me. I hear the laughter, I taste the tears. And yet you still know the best ways to hurt me inside, more than you will ever realise. Sometimes I cry for you, without tears. I don´t want any questions asked. I have wanted to hate you in so many ways for as long as I remember. Things would be a lot easier if I did. Obviously, I can´t. I don´t know how it all got so out of control, why did I let this go this far. What have you done to me? What have you done to make me feel like this. It must feel good, to have the power over me. This is not fair. Whatever it is, stop. I know I sure am going to.