Sunday, January 23, 2005

I never thought I'd fall - Be at the mercy of a man

I am so disappointed in you. And sad. I should´ve known better. I thought you were different, I thought wrong. Once again, that was proven by your surprisingly arrogant and outrageous behaviour. I´m not angry, I´m sad. You said "I´m sorry." Like you always do, but you never really mean it. Do you honestly think that little of me? You and your strong opinions - with one small gesture you blow it all away. Just like that. Does it feel good? To make me feel like I was less of a woman, insecure, because of what I feel and think. You call me a hypocrite. How dare you, when it´s you who has all the cards and playing it wrong? Time and time again I have told myself this is not worth it. Silly me, thought it would work - yes, maybe in another lifetime. But you have proved me wrong. Now I know. You are no different. I´m surprised I ever thought different. Someone said it´s curiosity. Maybe so. More? Maybe it once was, not anymore. Hasn´t been for a long time. I once had a chance but I let it go. What is done, is done. I can´t do this anymore. I´m just a piece of ass to you. Admit it. We all know it. I never meant anything to you. And I never will. In fact, I´m over that. I don´t have to. Have your perfect little life, have it your way. I´m out for good. Ohh! Btw... Happy Birthday. Let the inner child go free.. :-D

5 Comments:

At 23 January, 2005 15:13, Blogger kimmyk said...

Not sure what he did, but I would say if someone makes you feel this way inside-it's always best to let it/him go and begin the healing process. I wish ya luck...Kim

 
At 24 January, 2005 01:13, Blogger Dragonfly said...

I´m getting there, I´m alright. Thank you for your concern. As I read my post now, I feel like I had no right write such thing. But is good, to let it all out. Would even be better if I told him...

 
At 24 January, 2005 01:13, Blogger Dragonfly said...

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At 24 January, 2005 17:27, Blogger SquirrleyMojo said...

Becareful not to give him too much power over your self.

Why should his thoughts/actions ever matter more than your own? Come to know yourself outside of what you may think his oppinions are--is he insecure, putting on a show?

Finally, please remember, the way you may think he sees you isn't the way other people (ie future mates/partners) will see you, either.

Never let anyone make you feel less of a woman than you know yourself to be.

 
At 26 January, 2005 17:21, Blogger SquirrleyMojo said...

Uh, that's a biblical phrase.
Or, were you funny? If so, that was funny.

 

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