Friday, February 04, 2005

There is this patient... She had breast cancer in 2000. Now the doctors found out that she has metastases. I know serious illness changes people and can cause deep depression that includes incapable of moving. If she was the one to decide, she wouldn´t do a thing by herself. All she does is ring the friggin bell. She is more work than 5 patients together. What a surprise that it´s the student who gets to answer her calls every 10 minutes. She knows I´m a student and she just...uses me. She is nice. Sometimes I think she doesn´t even realise what she´s doing. It´s like she doesn´t understand that she is not the only patient there. The other *some of them real bitchy* nurses have tried talking to her but she just gets more excited. I tried to tell her NICELY that we can´t come right away every time she rings. Because if we´re not in her room in 2 minutes, she will ring again. Grrr... But, as always, I´m too nice. And I say nothing. Then I get to bitch at home. Today I haven´t had anyone to bitch at because H is at work, he should be home within an hour or so. Hopefully I will be sleeping by the time he gets here...NOT.... My feet hurt. Hmm. I wonder how many kilometers I have walked today. And the same "routine" tomorrow. Starting 7am... Today they ran some tests, that had something to do with isotopes. And because I was with her a lot, I wasn´t allowed to be near small children or pregnant women the rest of the day. Have you ever heard of a band called Blue? I have HEARD but not seen... Whoa!! I just saw there music video last weekend. There was this guy that made me drop my jaw. Pzzz.. HOT. Hehehe. Saved my day. Ohh those little joys of life. Hmm... What I meant by H´s dad´s comment about giving him more grandchildren... I think he´s really not holding his breathe. Hehehe. I mean, I KNOW he is quite old fashioned. H´s mom has never really work outside home. Except the family company... I know he thinks I´m a bit selfish because I want to graduate before having kids. It´s really none of his business and I know *once again* he thinks I´m hmm too loud, so to speak. In my family, we have always talked about things that bothered us. H´s family is totally different. H has had a lot of issues concerning about my ehh "openings". I am not used to keeping things bottled up inside. And yesterday I realised *and was a bit shocked* that I will graduate in about a year from now. Last night *and a few times before* I have talked to H about this... What would he think about having a baby right after I graduate. Which of course would mean I would be pregnant soon...Hehehe... He hasn´t shown the red light... green either. So, who knows. It´s still under discussion. ;-) There´s no rush. Uh oh. H is home. In the shower already and it´s almost 11pm. I have to be up before 6am. *yawns* My neck hurts. My nose is running and my head hurts. Welcome flu buggie!! My sister already had glandular fever, so.... Bugger. Ugh, time to get some hot tea inside me and hit the bed. Night. :-)

4 Comments:

At 04 February, 2005 17:37, Blogger SquirrleyMojo said...

Must be hard to watch people who are dying?

 
At 04 February, 2005 19:31, Blogger Dragonfly said...

It is. Especially when they´re young. But I try not to think about them dying. Of course I have to but they are still the same they were before getting ill. So, I try treating them as normally as I can, under the curcomstances. I don´t get this ahh I feel SO sorry for you - look on my face like some of the nurses have... they don´t need that.

 
At 05 February, 2005 06:22, Blogger SquirrleyMojo said...

but I mean, when they are ringing the bell & you are having a rough night yourself . . .

 
At 06 February, 2005 16:59, Blogger Dragonfly said...

I´m not sure I got your point... But, seeing someone die is always hard. You never get used to it. And if you do, it´s about time to change something. Well, that´s what I think. They ring the bell because they want company, someone to talk to. They are afraid of being alone. I understand that completely but sometimes they tend to do it on purpose, to students. Because they think we have time. Like we were there only for them. It´s not just the patients that are dying. Some people just think students need to know what it´s REALLY like. Pffft!

Eventho you´re having a rough night, it´s not the patients´ fault. Never take it out on them. Of course there are cases where you just have to be a little "rough" and tell the patient that there are other patients too and we can´t come right away when they ring the bell because usually what they need is someone to move their leg (even when they can do it themselves). That usually tells that all they need is company... And days like these, when hospitals don´t have enough staff, there´s no way we can do that. Sad but true.

 

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