I haven´t cried myself to sleep for such a long time. Last night, I couldn´t sleep. I stayed up till 3am. All I wanted to do was to scream and wake up that snoring and selfish bastard! Call me petty, but I didn´t even get a Valentine´s Day kiss. Nada. He knew and still knows why I´m like this, and I still think I have every right to be. I´m really looking forward to the day when he actually realises that I´m not something he should take for granted. And, it is just sad. He will never realise it. He knows me. He thinks... "Let her be mad for a while, she´ll nag about it a bit and leaves it to that. Like she always does. I´ll be safe till next time..." Yes, that´s me. But I do have to wonder how long I can take this, being a coward. Someone told me to listen to my heart. Sometimes I find that hard, not knowing where my heart is anymore. Right now, I feel like I´ve got nothing to say to him. I think I need some time away from him. We spend too much time together. I´m losing myself...