I hate feeling like this... Like I´m going to burst into tears any second. I feel so numb. I can´t breathe. I don´t care anymore. I´m done with trying to fix things up on my own. I have tried my best, my everything but obviously it´s not enough. If I only had the strength... to make things better for both of us. Why me? Because I seem to be the only one knowing what´s really going on. What if it isn´t me going with the flow. I´m tired of dragging him behind me. It´s about time I start listening to my heart. If I left, would he realise what he´s missing? He probably won´t even realise I´m gone before he runs out of clean clothes...