We haven´t talked after I came home. I stayed at my parents´ for about 6 hours today. Had dinner and took a shower, went to sauna... It did relax me a bit. I want to yell, scream and cry. I´m so tired of this shit. Every two months something new comes up. Something that he accidently forgot to tell me... Ohh please, how stupid you think I am.

I need to get away from here. My cousin´s been asking me to come see her. She lives about 100 kilometers away, in Oulu. I think I´m going to call her soon and ask what she´s doing next weekend.