It´s been a relaxing weekend. Not having had a single day off in weeks was getting on me... I was getting very tired physically and emotionally. And it was starting to affect my relationship with H. I have been so drained in many ways for so long that I haven´t realised the effort he´s been putting in this. A conversation with a dear friend opened my eyes. It is time for me to look in the mirror before I start swinging the rolling pin...

I know it´s not just him. It´s me, too. I know he has a lot of things to change, he knows it too. But I have also. I can´t just come and make those demands and do nothing myself. I have been blind for my own mistakes. And now that we have finally started to talk about things, I know what´s been bothering him. My own insecurities have made me more or less hysterical. I´m sure things will get better when all this fuss in our life ends... Hmm. In about a month...

I´m feeling much better now. Despite the sore muscles from last night spent in the kitchen, I feel calm, relaxed, and a little tired. ;) Today we are going to Sweden.