If love was a sport, we´re not on the same team...

I.am.exhausted. The weekend wore me out. It was nice, actually. We went there on Wednesday and came back yesterday. Visited H´s grandma (his dad´s mom) in the hospital, she has just been diagnosed with Alzheimer´s and osteoporosis. She´s lost a lot of weight, she has always been very small and now she´s lost almost all of what was left. She can´t move much anymore... When she tries to walk a bit she starts to feel dizzy...They have ran a lot of tests. I guess this is what they call old age, she´s 86. She´s become close to me. She´s a lot different than H´s parents, we talk a lot. It felt weird staying there and not having her around... She´s a quiet person, but still it felt so silent. H´s parents have changed somehow. I can´t tell how but they have. H said the same... Maybe the reality of how short life can be has finally kicked in. Maybe they see me in a different light after seeing me the way I was right after grandma´s death. I don´t know, and I don´t need to know. All I know is that it´s good...

We spent a lot of time at H´s parents. We walked in the nature, visited some friends and even went to play volleyball and badminton with friends on Saturday before sauna. That felt awesome!! I was so tired after that but still feeling good. It relaxing to spend a little time in sauna...not too hot...with the candles. :)

I hated coming back home... I wanted to stay there longer. Unfortunately I had school today and H had to work. Hmm. The people from Greenpeace was at his work today...something you won´t see everyday. I´m bored. Nothing happens... I get cranky and snap at him for whatever reasons. I hate myself when I`m like this. I guess the best thing to do now is take a shower and call it a night a little earlier today...